downMonday, November 12, 2007
Start from yesterday, my mood is down. Super down. I worried my model making. I gave to a shop to do my model, then I dy told him that before 11th of November I need it. But until today, he still notyet do it for me. I very nervous because I need it to draw technical drawing then need to submit on this coming Wednesday.
Last night, I really tired. I lying on the bed, thought I can sleep well. But my mind keep on playing with me. Think a lot. Scare the person can't gave me the model on time. Then, I message my bf. I get shock by his message. He wrote:"Baby, stay calm.. Everything is set dy.. God set everything. Got faith in him. He'll lead christian to good. Trust me." After I read his message, I cried. I didn't reply him. He not a christian, yet, the way he told me seem like he is a christian. I really touch. Dear, thanks for your comfort~
Ya, maybe I don't have enough faith on God. Everyday I pray to God, hope I can get my model soon. I admit, my faith upon God not enough strong. I can tell you guys that now I have fully faith upon God. But if you ask me, "am I still worry?" I can answer u >>> YES!!! But I know God has his own plan.
While typing, I feel wanna cry out too~
Today, is a moody day for me too~ I don't know why. Today is one of my design subject assessment day. One of my lecturer ask me tomorrow go and meet him again. I don't know why? He even didn't give any comment on my design. I feel scary.
I got another sad news today too~ One of my lecturer gonna go to UK to further her study in PHD. Congratulation, Pn Rinee. Today,she told us many of her stories. How she went through all this year? From degree to master, and now from master to PHD. From her story, I knew that she is strong in her religion. Although she's a muslim but the way she commit everything to God, I feel impress. Everything she just leave it to God. She let the God lead her the way. Her word and testimonial inspire me. Through her word, she remind me again that I must have faith upon God and walk my way with God's strength.
God is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.
I will be with him in trouble;
i will rescue him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.
~ Psalm 92:15-16